THERE IS JUST ONE THING THAT MATTERS

'If God seems slow in responding, it is because He is preparing a better gift. He will not deny us. God withholds what you are not yet ready for. He wants you to have a lively desire for His greatest gifts. All of which is to say, pray always and do not lose heart.' - St. Augustine

This piece of wisdom from St. Augustine is important to consider

when people suffer from protected illness, disability or chronic disease. I have suffered from incurable illness and disability (aggressive MS) for over 30 years. 

In the end, when its all been said and done, my anguish will only matter in as much as it drew me closer to God's love, or drove me from Him in bitterness. Will I have lived for Truth and glory of Jesus Christ or the lie of self glory and self interest? 

I want to rest in the fullness of Christ's love when my life is done. God is preparing a better gift than the best this life can offer. As the song below says, "All my treasures will mean nothing, only what I've done for Love's reward, will stand the test of time" -- and the timeless too. Whether my legs worked in this life will mean nothing for I will be like Him[1] and I will finally see him as He is.[2] I will shed the mortal for the immortal.[3] 


The trials of this life will have proven as a refiner's fire;[4] the tears shed here will be part of the joy there. Christ's love and heaven will be my true reward when its all been said and done; we will stand face to face.  My wheelchair will be a distant memory. God is not slow to respond to my pleas, He is using my pain as a refiner's fire.

Fellow Christian sufferer, do not waste your anguish. Give it to God to use for your good.[5]

[Click on image below or http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1llIIhBMCjU for Robin Mark, "When It's All Been Said And Done."]

[1] See Romans 8.29, 2Corinthians 3.18,

[2] See Job 19.25-27, 1John 3.2,

[3] Philippians 3.21.

[4] Cp. Isaiah 48.10, 1Peter 1.7.

[5] Romans 8.17-18, 28.